Matthew Schuler or rather, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s describes in scary detail how I’ve felt almost my whole life…
I’ve always felt I’ve been alone out there, It didn’t matter which continent I was on or where I was living- completely surrounded by people or on a remote island with very few, not many understood my thoughts of: constantly contradicting myself- fitting in but always wanting to be alone, extremely talkative but keeping 99% of my life private, being semi street smart (as smart as one can be when from small town Ohio) but truly believing in all the “baddies” as my old roommate from Philly calls them, and most of all having more energy and excitement than three friends combined and then with a snap of my fingers able to go home and take a nap.
Approaching the beginning of my 30th year, I was truly beginning to think something was wrong with me, that the tug and pull of everyday life (who am I/do I want to be/should be?) wasn’t normal. Little did I know someone else was out there not only blogging about it, but blogging about someone else that has WRITTEN A BOOK and to boot, been studying people like me for the last 30 years!!! Now…. am I anything special? Absolutely not. I feel crazy half the time and although I love being creative and I believe part of this has been ingrained in me through many years of art school - i know looking at my parents a lot of it was not only taught, but learned behavior.
Reading through all 9 traits it was almost as if someone had interviewed me or taken a peek into my brain to get the answers. I mentally checked off every single one- astonished but also, relieved.
If you are reading this and have ever felt this way…there are other people out there like you. Send me a message. heck, send Matthew one. I’m going to-I need to thank him. :)